Welcome Welcome Tuesday Morning

Hey Everyone, it's been awhile, I've missed ya, you've missed me too right? ok good.

Last night sucked, no sleep, nothing could make me fall asleep not even listening to Breaking Dawn on my ipod and that always works! I had to go out to the car at 3 in the am just to retrieve the ipod for heaven sakes, I wore my polka dot robe and no pants plus no shoes...big mistake...SNOW?!?! Where is the springtime weather I am craving my 3 am brain thought, then aaak was that a cat under the car? Yep, love those cats! All 15 of them, according to my landlord she has one of the first feral cat colonies in SLC county, wow, right?

Finally sleep came right around the time Bella turned into a Vampire! Did not see that coming, ha just kidding I have read the book like 3 times, embarrassing, yes.

So my life these days has been better, my Endocrinologist got me on some new meds and I honestly feel so so so much better. No more flu like symptoms all day everyday. I am also on the new diet craze that is sweeping the Vaughn family and I have lost 9 lbs. in a week. Which is awesome since I need to get back to my pre-fat days before September 18 because that is when me and Bryon will be getting married. Yep gonna get settled down and become a Glathar, a Vaughn Glathar that is. I am really excited. I always knew I did not want a big wedding, I didn't even want to wear a dress. That is until the Internets changed my mind and now all I do at night is look at flowers and invites and centerpieces and mood boards. Have you ever heard of a mood board? They are the greatest! Still the wedding will be small small tiny but with prettier colors.

I am gonna be taking better care of my blog because well it was kinda like a therapist for me and since I don't have health insurance and get a bit crazy I need the therapy again, also I still get those awesome bills and phone calls every single day. I feel so bad for not paying off all my medical debt because hello these people saved my life, but really all I can send you this month Mountain West Anesthesiology is $26.00 is that ok? and they usually say no, not cool.

So any help would be great! I want to thank an old friend Marci for writing, that's one of the reasons I decided to get back into this, because people are still stumbling onto my blog and that is cool. Thanks Marci!

Peace and here is my favorite mood board of the moment from A Creative Mint

Awesome

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cushings_syndrome

meow

I hate cats. I am afraid of cats. The lady that me and Bry live below has a feral cat community living right outside our door. She has also been doing some construction and we lost a wall separating our place from hers, our cat free home, hers is chuck full. Well one of them wandered downstairs tonight to where we have a temporary door and began meowing and purring to it's heart content. Now I can't sleep because of the damn noise and because I am afraid it will learn how to open my door and come in and attack me. It could happen!

I have an appointment with a new dr. At 9 am then I am gonna work for a few hours. I hate cats! I hope my appointment goes well and my hair will stop falling out, my cushing's syndrome will go away and I will not have arthritis! A girl can dream right?

P.s. I typed this on my phone so if it looks bad sorry. I am now going to google how to silence cats!(forever)

Hello Stephanie and other readers,

It has been forever since I wrote/blogged. Still trying to get back to normal. A few setbacks to note, I am loosing my hair, I see a specialist called a endocrinologist in March but I am afraid all my hair will be gone by then. I also have a Vitamin D deficiency as well as a Cortisol deficiency my PCP says may be causing the hair loss. I am also scheduled to see a rheumatologist since my hands and joints are constantly hurting me and I am sick of the pain killers that just make me itch! I have a feeling lots of tests are on the way.

I started back to work last week, just a few hours to get back into the swing of things. I really like the people I work with so it was nice to see them again. It will also be nice to have a few extra dollars. I still receive at least 20 letters a week from various health care providers wanting payment, I feel like such a bum not being able to pay it back yet, I hoping for more financial aid from IHC and maybe something from the state but I'm not getting my hopes up. Donations

I'm excited for the weekend hopefully lots of fun and sleep will be had. Thanks for stopping by!

P.S. I am including a picture of a painting Bryon gave me for Christmas, it is so beautiful. It is called Bowl of Oranges. Which by the way is our song by Bright Eyes...check it out.

Have a Holly Jolly Christmas

Thank you Everyone for all your love and support. Merry Christmas! xoxo Holly

On the Road Again

I am so excited! I am finally well enough to get out of this house and take a much needed vacation. I know I need it but I think maybe Bryon needs it more! We are headed to St. George and Las Vegas in the morning and I don't know if I will be able to sleep!

Road trips are my favorite. When Bryon and I first started dating we took many trips, San Fransisco, Portland, Reno. So being in a car with the music cranked reminds me of when we first met and how we instantly fell in love...with long drives together, we love to sing as loud as we can to Conor and Eddie and all the rest.

I hope it's warm!

I've Got A Feeling

The weather outside is frightful and it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

I am very excited to be around this holiday season plus I feel like a human again, a 27 year old human instead of a 80 year old one. My body has changed, parts of me don't look like they used to. I beat the infection and tumor, now I am ready to celebrate.

I think I will make it look like Christmas at the Vaughn-Glathar home this week. I can't wait to get some Christmas shopping done and some presents under my beautiful red tree. I just need to convince Vicky Vaughn to come lend a hand. I made a gingerbread house last Sat. it wasn't as cute as Kayla's and I couldn't take it home on the train with me, I will pull out last year's breast cancer awareness house. I miss seeing my extended family, time for a get together!

Still trying to get financially fit, it's hard, I don't want to look at the bills. I still haven't gotten a dime from the State, I think I must have done something wrong or they are slow. I am ready to get back to work, on a part time basis. 2010 better be good!

These are pictures from 2008 Christmas.

The End

As many of you know I love Pearl Jam. They had a new album, they toured, they came to SLC, I had tickets (second row!!!!), I got sick, then got sicker, missed the concert under doctors orders, and still find it hard to listen to them without being really bummed. I wouldn't let Bryon tell me anything about the show I missed because I am a cry baby. Listening to The End today and really hope I can see them when they head west again, because my head is healing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S8gJgOCc1EE

Happy Thanksgiving

I am thankful for
Bryon
My loving family
Modern Medicine
My Doctors
Music
Corn with real butter
Feeling a little better everyday
The beautiful state of Utah
World Tour app that shows me the world
My drugs
Quality tv like Survivor
Good friends
Those who have morally and financially supported me the last 4 months

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

It's Out

I got my PICC line removed yesterday. I was so worried I would have to keep it in for another week! When Dr. T. said it could come out I started crying with happiness and relief. I was a little scared for the removal because when they put it in it was quite a procedure, the line goes all the way to the heart area. The nurse came in and I tried to get Bryon to hold my hand but he was on the other side of the room, the nurse assured me it wouldn't hurt, and by the time Bryon got to me it was out and I didn't feel a thing! Bryon said it was pretty nasty looking coming out, the nurse kept pulling and pulling.

I thought I would feel better immediately but alas I still feel terrible. I guzzled Gatorade and paid the prize yesterday and today, you would think I would learn. (Gatorade smells like a Popsicle coming up, ask my Mom) So the complaning will continue! Ha. I have hope I will feel better by Monday maybe sooner but knowing my recovery it will be a week, until then if you need me I will be in the bathroom with my head in the toilet.

Holly