Thursday, March 12, 2015
I am having trouble sleeping tonight. So much stress and anxiety about my upcoming surgery making me so sick tonight. It's a worry I have before all my surgeries....what if I don't wake up?? I'm told I shouldn't worry but I truly cannot stop. Thanks for everyone for donating. If you can't donate please share my story. Send me sleepy thoughts as well.
Monday, March 9, 2015
An Update
Hi Friends and Family!
It's been awhile since I wrote on my dear ol' blog, but some new medical problems have come up again and I want to tell you all what's new.
As some as you know, I was diagnosed with avascular necrosis (AVN) in January 2013. This terrible diagnosis is due to the fact that I was on an extended treatment of high-dose steroids after my brain tumor and staph infection that followed.
I started having terrible hip pain in July of 2012. I thought it was because I started to be more active and figured it was a pulled muscle or pinched nerve. I had an MRI arthrogram and was told I had AVN. I found a great orthopedic surgeon and he recommended that I have a surgery called core decompression of the femoral head.
Core decompression of the hip is usually employed before collapse and fracture of the femoral head to delay or avoid reconstructive surgery of the affected joint. It is generally carried out to preserve the function and the structure of the hip, as well as to relieve pain associated with AVN.
So the surgery was not entirely successful. (In hindsight, it was a complete failure). I was still in a lot of pain most of the time, but I was told I could wait until I was 40 to have a total hip replacement. Fast forward two years and the pain in my hip is downright excruciating. I got another MRI arthrogram and the results were not good, my hip had rapidly deteriorated and was near collapse. A total hip replacement, the three surgeons have told me, is now the only answer.
I have a great job at a local pharmacy. I work 4 10- 11-hour shifts a week. It's not easy to be on my feet all day but this job is amazing. It's fun and challenging and exactly what I love to do. I have only been working there for seven months so I do not qualify for FMLA or paid time off.
I need approximately 10 weeks off to recuperate and get strong. I have insurance but that will only cover part of the actual surgery, because once I stop working, I only have a couple of weeks of coverage before I'm dropped from the plan. Then I'm out of luck. I hope the Affordable Healthcare Act will help fill in the gaps until I can return to work, but the co-pays, followups, prescriptions, medical equipment (walker, crutches, etc.) and mostly sudden lack of income are what have really been keeping me up at night.
As some of you might know, my past medical complications makes this surgery not only scary and dangerous, but also more expensive than for most. Since I have Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome (ARDS), I've had to see my pulmonologist to get cleared for surgery, and will have to pay for her services while in the hospital. I'm also likely to stay in the hospital for much longer than others, who could possibly go home the very next day.
Every doctor bill is going add up to quite a lot of money. We will be living off of Bryon's income for that time. And while he loves his job, newspapers don't pay like Wall Street does.
I have had experience with huge hospital bills with my brain tumor and staph infection and as a result had to file for medical bankruptcy several years ago. I was young and single and didn't have health insurance. I didn't have much options because I needed emergency surgery to remove the tumor. I don't want to have to go down that road again.
I am hoping to get a little help from my friends. In addition to drastically cutting expenses and using what little we've been able to save over the past couple of months, I am starting a Go Fund Me account in hopes of paying all the upcoming bills, as well as all the bills from multiple MRI's, doctors visits and medication that I have incurred in the last few months getting ready for my hip surgery. I know this is asking a lot. I know I have amazing friends and family and I know that the kindness of strangers can change the world.
Today I had an MRI of my shoulder because I had surgery to repair slap tears two years ago, (believed to be related to nerve damage after falling from tumor-related incident) and I think I have re-injured my shoulder.) It hurts a lot. As I lied in the coffin that is an MRI machine, I struggled and cried and they were finally able to coax me in. My mind wandered and I started feeling really bad for myself.
I cried for myself, for my husband, for my family. I have been a difficult patient at times. I thought about what I had missed out of because of all this crap. All the times I couldn't get out of bed, couldn't be released from the hospital even though my boyfriend (now husband) Bryon had 2nd row tickets to our favorite band Pearl Jam. He even organized a fundraiser for the Wishlist Foundation and raised more than $1,600 to donate to charities the band supports.
I thought about the baby I will probably never have and the sacrifices Bryon has had to make.I know this is my trial in life. I believe in science and I believe in luck. I have not been lucky, but science has saved my life. If it weren't for the hardworking doctors, nurses and staff at Intermountain Medical Center, I wouldn't be here. If Bryon hadn't carried me to the ER on Sept. 15, 2009 — I would have died.
This time around, I just hope there are no complications and I can spend my recovery time without too much pain.
It's been awhile since I wrote on my dear ol' blog, but some new medical problems have come up again and I want to tell you all what's new.
As some as you know, I was diagnosed with avascular necrosis (AVN) in January 2013. This terrible diagnosis is due to the fact that I was on an extended treatment of high-dose steroids after my brain tumor and staph infection that followed.
I started having terrible hip pain in July of 2012. I thought it was because I started to be more active and figured it was a pulled muscle or pinched nerve. I had an MRI arthrogram and was told I had AVN. I found a great orthopedic surgeon and he recommended that I have a surgery called core decompression of the femoral head.
Core decompression of the hip is usually employed before collapse and fracture of the femoral head to delay or avoid reconstructive surgery of the affected joint. It is generally carried out to preserve the function and the structure of the hip, as well as to relieve pain associated with AVN.
So the surgery was not entirely successful. (In hindsight, it was a complete failure). I was still in a lot of pain most of the time, but I was told I could wait until I was 40 to have a total hip replacement. Fast forward two years and the pain in my hip is downright excruciating. I got another MRI arthrogram and the results were not good, my hip had rapidly deteriorated and was near collapse. A total hip replacement, the three surgeons have told me, is now the only answer.
I have a great job at a local pharmacy. I work 4 10- 11-hour shifts a week. It's not easy to be on my feet all day but this job is amazing. It's fun and challenging and exactly what I love to do. I have only been working there for seven months so I do not qualify for FMLA or paid time off.
I need approximately 10 weeks off to recuperate and get strong. I have insurance but that will only cover part of the actual surgery, because once I stop working, I only have a couple of weeks of coverage before I'm dropped from the plan. Then I'm out of luck. I hope the Affordable Healthcare Act will help fill in the gaps until I can return to work, but the co-pays, followups, prescriptions, medical equipment (walker, crutches, etc.) and mostly sudden lack of income are what have really been keeping me up at night.
As some of you might know, my past medical complications makes this surgery not only scary and dangerous, but also more expensive than for most. Since I have Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome (ARDS), I've had to see my pulmonologist to get cleared for surgery, and will have to pay for her services while in the hospital. I'm also likely to stay in the hospital for much longer than others, who could possibly go home the very next day.
Every doctor bill is going add up to quite a lot of money. We will be living off of Bryon's income for that time. And while he loves his job, newspapers don't pay like Wall Street does.
I have had experience with huge hospital bills with my brain tumor and staph infection and as a result had to file for medical bankruptcy several years ago. I was young and single and didn't have health insurance. I didn't have much options because I needed emergency surgery to remove the tumor. I don't want to have to go down that road again.
I am hoping to get a little help from my friends. In addition to drastically cutting expenses and using what little we've been able to save over the past couple of months, I am starting a Go Fund Me account in hopes of paying all the upcoming bills, as well as all the bills from multiple MRI's, doctors visits and medication that I have incurred in the last few months getting ready for my hip surgery. I know this is asking a lot. I know I have amazing friends and family and I know that the kindness of strangers can change the world.
Today I had an MRI of my shoulder because I had surgery to repair slap tears two years ago, (believed to be related to nerve damage after falling from tumor-related incident) and I think I have re-injured my shoulder.) It hurts a lot. As I lied in the coffin that is an MRI machine, I struggled and cried and they were finally able to coax me in. My mind wandered and I started feeling really bad for myself.
I cried for myself, for my husband, for my family. I have been a difficult patient at times. I thought about what I had missed out of because of all this crap. All the times I couldn't get out of bed, couldn't be released from the hospital even though my boyfriend (now husband) Bryon had 2nd row tickets to our favorite band Pearl Jam. He even organized a fundraiser for the Wishlist Foundation and raised more than $1,600 to donate to charities the band supports.
I thought about the baby I will probably never have and the sacrifices Bryon has had to make.I know this is my trial in life. I believe in science and I believe in luck. I have not been lucky, but science has saved my life. If it weren't for the hardworking doctors, nurses and staff at Intermountain Medical Center, I wouldn't be here. If Bryon hadn't carried me to the ER on Sept. 15, 2009 — I would have died.
This time around, I just hope there are no complications and I can spend my recovery time without too much pain.
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Hawaii so Far
It's super hard to write on vacation just sayin.
I have found out some very interesting things while in Hawaii:
A: The ocean is really salty, like unbelievably so
B. If I use a fake accent on an elevator just for fun I will be asked if the weather in Australia is nice this time of year and I will be unable to answer correctly.
C. Kava is freaking disgusting and has no effect on me
D. You will get sand in your nether regions if you sit in the sand
E. Always pack more than you think you should
G. Turning 30 in Hawaii is much better then turning 30 in Utah
H. Turns out I am even less photogenic than I thought
I. Tropical vacations are the best vacations!
Also my husband is a hero and saved a group of Japanese ladies who spoke no English from certain death! They were drifting off to sea and Bryon towed them back in. He kept giving them a thumbs up to keep them calm.
So tomorrow we are gonna hit up the swap meet, swing by some sweet beaches and then go to a Luau for my birthday. I know it will be an amazing day!
I have found out some very interesting things while in Hawaii:
A: The ocean is really salty, like unbelievably so
B. If I use a fake accent on an elevator just for fun I will be asked if the weather in Australia is nice this time of year and I will be unable to answer correctly.
C. Kava is freaking disgusting and has no effect on me
D. You will get sand in your nether regions if you sit in the sand
E. Always pack more than you think you should
G. Turning 30 in Hawaii is much better then turning 30 in Utah
H. Turns out I am even less photogenic than I thought
I. Tropical vacations are the best vacations!
Also my husband is a hero and saved a group of Japanese ladies who spoke no English from certain death! They were drifting off to sea and Bryon towed them back in. He kept giving them a thumbs up to keep them calm.
So tomorrow we are gonna hit up the swap meet, swing by some sweet beaches and then go to a Luau for my birthday. I know it will be an amazing day!
Sunday, October 7, 2012
You and Me in Waikiki
We started the great 2012 Hawaiian adventure on Friday @ 2:30 pm when Bryon picked me up from MCG. It was hard to say goodbye since I will be off for 1 whole week!
We headed straight to Jazzie's to look at her suitcases for a carry on if we needed it. We were very worried that our suitcases would be too heavy and we would be hit with huge extra charges. We got to see our 2 favorite boys Ayden & Myles and their perfect Mom Jasmine. Those Sorensen's make cute babies. Jazzy also lent me a super pretty beach wrap. I wanted to take all 3 of them with us!
We were on the road to St. George by 3:17 pm and we were very pumped. We love long drives together. (most of the time :)) I was feeling like I needed a smallish nap so I drifted off to sleep while we listened to This America Life.
We made it to St. George in record time because Bryon is a pro driver. St. George is one of our favorite places to go because we get to stay at G&G Colby's cute house. We made it in without seeing off the alarm which is a big deal as I am pretty sure I have set if off twice. (sorry Grandma!!)
We got settled and ordered a pizza and watched 30 Rock. We found a scaled and weighed our suitcases and they were both underweight, thank you universe! Bryon went to bed around 9:40 but I had so much anxiety + a little steroids in the system (I am old and have a bad hip) so I read for a bit and got to bed before midnight.
We were up at 3:15am and realized I had forgotten to pack my deodorant!! Craps! We cleaned up, locked up and headed out the door. We had a nice drive to Vegas and played a little would you rather.. barfing toddler next to you or screaming baby? Seated between Lohan and Paris or Mitt and Michael Fassbender. Of course I chose the second option. I love Mitt's hair and I love Fassbenders everything else.
We failed to get a spot at the cheap park and ride and we both had to pee so we hauled butt to long term parking. We got a little confused at the airport and couldn't find the ticket counter but after asking a Starbucks lady we got pointed in the right direction. Security was a breeze.
The wait for the flight was relaxing and we boarded the plane in peace. I also had a semi large dose of Xanax helping me along. Upon finding our seats we realized the Glath was WAY too tall for the puny seats. Poor guy! He was able to get moved to an exit row at the frontish part of the plane. My short legs got stuck in the back with strangers. I missed Bryon so much. I took another Xanax, put in my ipod and relaxed, even drifted to sleep for a bit. When I woke I decided it was time for a us to be in Hawaii but the pilot came on announced 3 more hours!!!
When we finally touched down and found each other it was very sweet and magically (lol) We bee lined it to baggage claim and then to the shuttle.
The last time I was in Hawaii we stayed at my Grandparents condo and it was so cool to see it again! The Koi pond full of huge fish were still here! The room is beautiful and the view is breathtaking! We unpacked and headed to Waikiki beach to take a look and get some dinner. We went to ABC and got some beverages and nuts. ABC stores are EVERYWHERE!!
We found great burger/bar place called Cheeseburger in Paradise and got dinner to go. I had the most amazing, unique meal called Loco Moco which is rice, hamburger patty, tons of brown gravy and onions with 2 eggs on top! I loved it I want to eat it for every meal!
I basically passed out on the couch at 9 and Bryon soon followed. So glad to be here with my amazing husband, he is so good to me especially when I get anxious or frustrated he knows how to talk me down.
Please enjoy these pics from our 1st Full day in Hawaii. I will get on post the excitement of Day 2 which includes salty salt lick ocean, 14 visits to the ABC store, sunburns and the time change. xoxoHVG
We headed straight to Jazzie's to look at her suitcases for a carry on if we needed it. We were very worried that our suitcases would be too heavy and we would be hit with huge extra charges. We got to see our 2 favorite boys Ayden & Myles and their perfect Mom Jasmine. Those Sorensen's make cute babies. Jazzy also lent me a super pretty beach wrap. I wanted to take all 3 of them with us!
We were on the road to St. George by 3:17 pm and we were very pumped. We love long drives together. (most of the time :)) I was feeling like I needed a smallish nap so I drifted off to sleep while we listened to This America Life.
We made it to St. George in record time because Bryon is a pro driver. St. George is one of our favorite places to go because we get to stay at G&G Colby's cute house. We made it in without seeing off the alarm which is a big deal as I am pretty sure I have set if off twice. (sorry Grandma!!)
We got settled and ordered a pizza and watched 30 Rock. We found a scaled and weighed our suitcases and they were both underweight, thank you universe! Bryon went to bed around 9:40 but I had so much anxiety + a little steroids in the system (I am old and have a bad hip) so I read for a bit and got to bed before midnight.
We were up at 3:15am and realized I had forgotten to pack my deodorant!! Craps! We cleaned up, locked up and headed out the door. We had a nice drive to Vegas and played a little would you rather.. barfing toddler next to you or screaming baby? Seated between Lohan and Paris or Mitt and Michael Fassbender. Of course I chose the second option. I love Mitt's hair and I love Fassbenders everything else.
We failed to get a spot at the cheap park and ride and we both had to pee so we hauled butt to long term parking. We got a little confused at the airport and couldn't find the ticket counter but after asking a Starbucks lady we got pointed in the right direction. Security was a breeze.
The wait for the flight was relaxing and we boarded the plane in peace. I also had a semi large dose of Xanax helping me along. Upon finding our seats we realized the Glath was WAY too tall for the puny seats. Poor guy! He was able to get moved to an exit row at the frontish part of the plane. My short legs got stuck in the back with strangers. I missed Bryon so much. I took another Xanax, put in my ipod and relaxed, even drifted to sleep for a bit. When I woke I decided it was time for a us to be in Hawaii but the pilot came on announced 3 more hours!!!
When we finally touched down and found each other it was very sweet and magically (lol) We bee lined it to baggage claim and then to the shuttle.
The last time I was in Hawaii we stayed at my Grandparents condo and it was so cool to see it again! The Koi pond full of huge fish were still here! The room is beautiful and the view is breathtaking! We unpacked and headed to Waikiki beach to take a look and get some dinner. We went to ABC and got some beverages and nuts. ABC stores are EVERYWHERE!!
We found great burger/bar place called Cheeseburger in Paradise and got dinner to go. I had the most amazing, unique meal called Loco Moco which is rice, hamburger patty, tons of brown gravy and onions with 2 eggs on top! I loved it I want to eat it for every meal!
I basically passed out on the couch at 9 and Bryon soon followed. So glad to be here with my amazing husband, he is so good to me especially when I get anxious or frustrated he knows how to talk me down.
Please enjoy these pics from our 1st Full day in Hawaii. I will get on post the excitement of Day 2 which includes salty salt lick ocean, 14 visits to the ABC store, sunburns and the time change. xoxoHVG
Sunday, September 16, 2012
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Tuesday, May 8, 2012
My Grandpa Gus was born 100 years ago....
today. I miss him everyday. This is one of his favorite poems and mine as well.
The West Wind by John Masefield
It's a warm wind, the west wind, full of birds' cries;
I never hear the west wind but tears are in my eyes.
For it comes from the west lands, the old brown hills.
And April's in the west wind, and daffodils.
It's a fine land, the west land, for hearts as tired as mine,
Apple orchards blossom there, and the air's like wine.
There is cool green grass there, where men may lie at rest,
And the thrushes are in song there, fluting from the nest.
"Will ye not come home brother? ye have been long away,
It's April, and blossom time, and white is the may;
And bright is the sun brother, and warm is the rain,--
Will ye not come home, brother, home to us again?
"The young corn is green, brother, where the rabbits run.
It's blue sky, and white clouds, and warm rain and sun.
It's song to a man's soul, brother, fire to a man's brain,
To hear the wild bees and see the merry spring again.
"Larks are singing in the west, brother, above the green wheat,
So will ye not come home, brother, and rest your tired feet?
I've a balm for bruised hearts, brother, sleep for aching eyes,"
Says the warm wind, the west wind, full of birds' cries.
It's the white road westwards is the road I must tread
To the green grass, the cool grass, and rest for heart and head,
To the violets, and the warm hearts, and the thrushes' song,
In the fine land, the west land, the land where I belong.
I never hear the west wind but tears are in my eyes.
For it comes from the west lands, the old brown hills.
And April's in the west wind, and daffodils.
It's a fine land, the west land, for hearts as tired as mine,
Apple orchards blossom there, and the air's like wine.
There is cool green grass there, where men may lie at rest,
And the thrushes are in song there, fluting from the nest.
"Will ye not come home brother? ye have been long away,
It's April, and blossom time, and white is the may;
And bright is the sun brother, and warm is the rain,--
Will ye not come home, brother, home to us again?
"The young corn is green, brother, where the rabbits run.
It's blue sky, and white clouds, and warm rain and sun.
It's song to a man's soul, brother, fire to a man's brain,
To hear the wild bees and see the merry spring again.
"Larks are singing in the west, brother, above the green wheat,
So will ye not come home, brother, and rest your tired feet?
I've a balm for bruised hearts, brother, sleep for aching eyes,"
Says the warm wind, the west wind, full of birds' cries.
It's the white road westwards is the road I must tread
To the green grass, the cool grass, and rest for heart and head,
To the violets, and the warm hearts, and the thrushes' song,
In the fine land, the west land, the land where I belong.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
The Benefits That Exercise Has to Offer For Cancer Patients and Survivors
Hey Everyone! The Gods know I need to take this article and seriously apply it to my daily life. It's a great read! Thanks David.
The Benefits That Exercise Has to Offer For Cancer Patients and Survivors
Everyone knows that exercise is good for the mind and body, but studies now show that it may also improve the wellbeing and recovery efforts of those with cancer or those who have survived it. While exercise may not be a sole cure for cancer or its reoccurrence, it is shown to improve overall results.
There is no denying that exercise and fitness can make a positive impact on the quality of life for those with cancer or have survived cancer. Recent studies have shown that being overweight after cancer treatment is linked with a shorter survival time and poses a higher risk for the cancer to return. Obviously, the benefits of exercise are numerous and will help cancer patients to maintain their weight and combat fatigue. Exercise will also help a patient to regain muscle mass that had been replaced with fat, improving overall health and self-image issues. In addition, exercise may improve flexibility, balance, and overall weakness that may have been the result of a surgery or other limitation. The emotional toll of cancer is high, so it is important that patients are able to return to their previous ways of life as soon as they are physically capable.
No matter what type of cancer a patient has encountered, from common cancers like breast cancer to a rare disease like mesothelioma, exercise is important to implement into a daily routine to help speed recovery. The American Cancer Society recommends that the general public participate in 30 to 60 minutes of physical activity at least five days a week, but cancer patients and survivors should design their routine according to their individual needs. A doctor or other medical professional may assist with these plans. Generally, various aerobic and weight training exercises should be implemented and it is recommended to start slowly so that the body can build energy and adjust over time.
The stress and depression that coincide with a cancer diagnosis will naturally slow down most cancer patients. However, it is important not to fall into this trap and find a way to maintain physical fitness and healthy weight levels so that the illness can be fought more effectively and kept from reoccurring once it is gone. Exercise is not an ultimate cancer treatment, but it will combat the factors that are associated with a cancer reoccurrence. As always, consult a doctor before implementing a new exercise routine, as cancer patients may possess a higher risk of developing heart and other health problems.
By: David Haas
http://www.mesothelioma.com/blog/
The Benefits That Exercise Has to Offer For Cancer Patients and Survivors
Everyone knows that exercise is good for the mind and body, but studies now show that it may also improve the wellbeing and recovery efforts of those with cancer or those who have survived it. While exercise may not be a sole cure for cancer or its reoccurrence, it is shown to improve overall results.
There is no denying that exercise and fitness can make a positive impact on the quality of life for those with cancer or have survived cancer. Recent studies have shown that being overweight after cancer treatment is linked with a shorter survival time and poses a higher risk for the cancer to return. Obviously, the benefits of exercise are numerous and will help cancer patients to maintain their weight and combat fatigue. Exercise will also help a patient to regain muscle mass that had been replaced with fat, improving overall health and self-image issues. In addition, exercise may improve flexibility, balance, and overall weakness that may have been the result of a surgery or other limitation. The emotional toll of cancer is high, so it is important that patients are able to return to their previous ways of life as soon as they are physically capable.
No matter what type of cancer a patient has encountered, from common cancers like breast cancer to a rare disease like mesothelioma, exercise is important to implement into a daily routine to help speed recovery. The American Cancer Society recommends that the general public participate in 30 to 60 minutes of physical activity at least five days a week, but cancer patients and survivors should design their routine according to their individual needs. A doctor or other medical professional may assist with these plans. Generally, various aerobic and weight training exercises should be implemented and it is recommended to start slowly so that the body can build energy and adjust over time.
The stress and depression that coincide with a cancer diagnosis will naturally slow down most cancer patients. However, it is important not to fall into this trap and find a way to maintain physical fitness and healthy weight levels so that the illness can be fought more effectively and kept from reoccurring once it is gone. Exercise is not an ultimate cancer treatment, but it will combat the factors that are associated with a cancer reoccurrence. As always, consult a doctor before implementing a new exercise routine, as cancer patients may possess a higher risk of developing heart and other health problems.
By: David Haas
http://www.mesothelioma.com/blog/
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Yarn Wreath Party!
My newest hobby is crazed crafting. I spend hours online looking at craft blogs and etsy shops and on and on and on. I love these yarn wreaths I have cranked out half a dozen and I am thinking about opening an etsy shop to pay for my need to craft.
Post Edit: I have decided that before opening an etsy shop I would sell my wreaths to friends and family. Just email me your color preferences and what size you would like 8in 10in or 14in.
Thank You!
Monday, February 14, 2011
I love that Mr. Glathar
10 Reasons I love my Husband
1. He is kind
2. He likes the same music as me
3. He loves long drives
4. He is up for anything
5. He saved my life
6. He puts up with all my childish crap
7. He lets me pick what we do, what we eat, where we go, what we watch, always
8. He loves my mom as much as I do
9. He has the most beautiful blue eyes
10. He thinks I'm pretty
Monday, February 7, 2011
Saturday, November 27, 2010
2010 Thanksgiving
This year I am thankful for...
My husband
My parents
My sisters Wendy and Tameron
My brothers Phil, Soy and Miles
My fake hair
My Doctors
Thanksgiving Buffets
Days with no snow
My Ipod with Bryon as the DJ
Netflix
People who surprise me
Thank you everyone who loves me, and hears hoping for another year tumor free
Holly Glathar
My husband
My parents
My sisters Wendy and Tameron
My brothers Phil, Soy and Miles
My fake hair
My Doctors
Thanksgiving Buffets
Days with no snow
My Ipod with Bryon as the DJ
Netflix
People who surprise me
Thank you everyone who loves me, and hears hoping for another year tumor free
Holly Glathar
Sunday, September 5, 2010
This time last Year
I do believe I have come a long long way. I still love to complain but things are much better than last year.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Sleep, No Thanks!
I have made peace with not sleeping. Mostly because there is so much one can do when one cannot find the Sandman. I just had some choc. milk and watched a little Gilmore Girls. I just read some blogs and had a few ritz crackers. I just made a slightly not ugly magnet. I just looked at puppies for sale at ksl.com! The snacking probably needs to stop but the rest oh I can't wait for more ways to fill my nights! Craft Time lots more cards to make! Oh and someone please buy me a puppy, preferably a night owl, like me.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Sleep, No Thanks!
I have made peace with not sleeping. Mostly because there is so much one can do when one cannot find the Sandman. I just had some choc. milk and watched a little Gilmore Girls. I just read some blogs and had a few ritz crackers. I just made a slightly not ugly magnet. I just looked at puppies for sale at ksl.com! The snacking probably needs to stop but the rest oh I can't wait for more ways to fill my nights! Craft Time lots more cards to make! Oh and someone please buy me a puppy, preferably a night owl, like me.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
I have returned!
I just got back from a 7 day fun-filled trip to Bear Lake with 4 adults, 3 teenagers and 2 kids. Wow it was really tough at times since none of the kids are mine so I can't kick them if they misbehave but most of the time they were sweet and cute and we did crafts or ate rock or played in the lake.
Last Saturday Bryon told me he wanted to have a date night, so we went into town for a Famous Bear Lake Raspberry Shake, well as it turns out they have a dirty little secret, Bear Lake Raspberries aren't ripe yet so they were using Paradise raspberries! I couldn't believe it! So we got our frozen treats and headed back to our beach as Bryon wanted to take a walk on the beach at sunset (so unlike him) So we head out of the car and as we do he grabs a bag from the trunk and I am thinking
"Sweet! Presents!!"
We walk a bit then find a staff table and sit down. Then Bry take out the most beautiful goblets and pours us each a drink, then he plays some tunes on his phone. It's all very romantic, the sun is setting, we have something sparkly to drink and Neil Young to listen to. Then Tom Waits starts playing Downtown Train, and we dance it was sweet then he got down on one knee and pulled out a bag and asked me to officially be his wife, I cried and said yes. Bryon and his sis ans sis in law had spent the morning in a antique jewelry store and found the perfect ring. I am so happy 2 months to go till I am Mrs. Glathar!
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Embrace the Suck
I love Ira Glass. I think he is quite the catch. He is on the radio, NPR, This American Life. It is sometimes a complete and total downer to listen to but it has great heartwarming stories, sometimes I cry and I always laugh. I highly recommend it.
Today at work I listened to a program that ran last year called This I used to believe. They mentioned a website, This I Believe
I read through a few stories on brain tumors of course (my favorite subject). I found this one and I loved it. These last few weeks/months I have been plagued with headaches, backaches and weird leg twitches. There is nothing really wrong with me according to my recent MRI, I just have left over crap that I will probably have forever say Dr. M. Anyways this story made me smile and tear up a little bit.Enjoy the story and thanks for stopping by.
Embrace the suck. When you want to quit: Embrace the suck. When you just can’t go on any longer: Embrace the Suck. When life seems to have taken its toll on you: Embrace the suck.
Embracing the suck is a phrase that has developed within my family. When enduring hardship in life, people tend to shut down. They cry, they yell, they break down. When embracing the suck, you endure this hardship. But not only endure, it you embrace it. This moment doesn’t happen all the time. But every time it does, you become stronger. And when you don’t fight it, but instead you hold it close, you grow. You grow from this experience. This problem or event that once hurt you has now become a part of you. It is no longer something that affected you, but is now one of the many things that shape you. So I ask you all to embrace the suck. Because when things get tough, it might be the only way out alive.
I’ve learned how to embrace the suck, and so has my dad, and so has my sister. And my mom has especially. She has embraced it for eight months. And when she went to the doctors because of stomach problems and was diagnosed with cancer, she learned to embrace the suck. And when she started radiation and chemotherapy, she learned to embrace the suck. And when she went into surgery to have the cancerous tumor removed, she learned to embrace the suck.
When she continued to be infused with chemo-radiation, she learned to embrace the suck. And when she slowly began to lose her hair, she learned to embrace the suck. And every time she touched something cold, she felt as if shards of glass were penetrating her skin, she learned to embrace the suck. She has endured this all with minimal complaints. But nonetheless, she has done it. And no one can take that away from her.
And now in June 9, 2007, she will be at Relay for Life doing the survivor lap. She’s a survivor. She did it. And the whole time, she embraced the suck.
If someone can go through so much, and a simple phrase can push them beyond, then I believe. So that is why I believe to embrace the suck.
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