2010 Thanksgiving

This year I am thankful for...
My husband
My parents
My sisters Wendy and Tameron
My brothers Phil, Soy and Miles
My fake hair
My Doctors
Thanksgiving Buffets
Days with no snow
My Ipod with Bryon as the DJ
Netflix
People who surprise me
Thank you everyone who loves me, and hears hoping for another year tumor free
Holly Glathar

This time last Year

I do believe I have come a long long way. I still love to complain but things are much better than last year.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Sleep, No Thanks!
I have made peace with not sleeping. Mostly because there is so much one can do when one cannot find the Sandman. I just had some choc. milk and watched a little Gilmore Girls. I just read some blogs and had a few ritz crackers. I just made a slightly not ugly magnet. I just looked at puppies for sale at ksl.com! The snacking probably needs to stop but the rest oh I can't wait for more ways to fill my nights! Craft Time lots more cards to make! Oh and someone please buy me a puppy, preferably a night owl, like me.

I have returned!

I just got back from a 7 day fun-filled trip to Bear Lake with 4 adults, 3 teenagers and 2 kids. Wow it was really tough at times since none of the kids are mine so I can't kick them if they misbehave but most of the time they were sweet and cute and we did crafts or ate rock or played in the lake.

Last Saturday Bryon told me he wanted to have a date night, so we went into town for a Famous Bear Lake Raspberry Shake, well as it turns out they have a dirty little secret, Bear Lake Raspberries aren't ripe yet so they were using Paradise raspberries! I couldn't believe it! So we got our frozen treats and headed back to our beach as Bryon wanted to take a walk on the beach at sunset (so unlike him) So we head out of the car and as we do he grabs a bag from the trunk and I am thinking
"Sweet! Presents!!"

We walk a bit then find a staff table and sit down. Then Bry take out the most beautiful goblets and pours us each a drink, then he plays some tunes on his phone. It's all very romantic, the sun is setting, we have something sparkly to drink and Neil Young to listen to. Then Tom Waits starts playing Downtown Train, and we dance it was sweet then he got down on one knee and pulled out a bag and asked me to officially be his wife, I cried and said yes. Bryon and his sis ans sis in law had spent the morning in a antique jewelry store and found the perfect ring. I am so happy 2 months to go till I am Mrs. Glathar!

I See You

Hope Everyone Is Having A Great Weekend!

Embrace the Suck

I love Ira Glass. I think he is quite the catch. He is on the radio, NPR, This American Life. It is sometimes a complete and total downer to listen to but it has great heartwarming stories, sometimes I cry and I always laugh. I highly recommend it.

Today at work I listened to a program that ran last year called This I used to believe. They mentioned a website, This I Believe
I read through a few stories on brain tumors of course (my favorite subject). I found this one and I loved it. These last few weeks/months I have been plagued with headaches, backaches and weird leg twitches. There is nothing really wrong with me according to my recent MRI, I just have left over crap that I will probably have forever say Dr. M. Anyways this story made me smile and tear up a little bit.Enjoy the story and thanks for stopping by.

Embrace the suck. When you want to quit: Embrace the suck. When you just can’t go on any longer: Embrace the Suck. When life seems to have taken its toll on you: Embrace the suck.

Embracing the suck is a phrase that has developed within my family. When enduring hardship in life, people tend to shut down. They cry, they yell, they break down. When embracing the suck, you endure this hardship. But not only endure, it you embrace it. This moment doesn’t happen all the time. But every time it does, you become stronger. And when you don’t fight it, but instead you hold it close, you grow. You grow from this experience. This problem or event that once hurt you has now become a part of you. It is no longer something that affected you, but is now one of the many things that shape you. So I ask you all to embrace the suck. Because when things get tough, it might be the only way out alive.

I’ve learned how to embrace the suck, and so has my dad, and so has my sister. And my mom has especially. She has embraced it for eight months. And when she went to the doctors because of stomach problems and was diagnosed with cancer, she learned to embrace the suck. And when she started radiation and chemotherapy, she learned to embrace the suck. And when she went into surgery to have the cancerous tumor removed, she learned to embrace the suck.

When she continued to be infused with chemo-radiation, she learned to embrace the suck. And when she slowly began to lose her hair, she learned to embrace the suck. And every time she touched something cold, she felt as if shards of glass were penetrating her skin, she learned to embrace the suck. She has endured this all with minimal complaints. But nonetheless, she has done it. And no one can take that away from her.

And now in June 9, 2007, she will be at Relay for Life doing the survivor lap. She’s a survivor. She did it. And the whole time, she embraced the suck.

If someone can go through so much, and a simple phrase can push them beyond, then I believe. So that is why I believe to embrace the suck.

Poor Me

I feel sick, like really sick. Here's the problem... I always feel sick. I hate hate hate going to the ER because I always think someone is gonna say, "You are such a wimp, why do you pretend to be sick all the time!" Before getting sick last year I had never gone to the ER because of the above reason. I just want to barf and sleep, so that's what I am gonna do! I have an MRI tomorrow, awful.

Holly's attempt at Glamping

So we (Bryon&Holly) were given a trailer, nice huh? We took it out on our first camping trip of the season last weekend. We traveled to the faraway land of Utah Valley and stayed at Utah Lake campsite. It was windy I mean blow your skirt up over your face, nose chapping horrid wind. We spent alot of time indoors, our camping buddies Wendy and Tameron have a lovely little home away from home with all the amenities needed for a good time. We played boggle, watched movies, ate great food and I often snuck away to sleep in my cozy camping bed. It is one of my favorite things to do after all! Here are some pics of the adventure!
Max the Dog, he loves glamping!

Our new Trailer

Our cozy camping bed

1 more week and we will be camping again this time at Payson Lakes. We need to outfit the trailer with a few items to truly be glamorous camping but we will keep trying! I am so glad I can do all the things I didn't know if I would be able to do ever again. Thanks for stopping by.

He Saved My Life So I Will Be His Wife

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Welcome Welcome Tuesday Morning

Hey Everyone, it's been awhile, I've missed ya, you've missed me too right? ok good.

Last night sucked, no sleep, nothing could make me fall asleep not even listening to Breaking Dawn on my ipod and that always works! I had to go out to the car at 3 in the am just to retrieve the ipod for heaven sakes, I wore my polka dot robe and no pants plus no shoes...big mistake...SNOW?!?! Where is the springtime weather I am craving my 3 am brain thought, then aaak was that a cat under the car? Yep, love those cats! All 15 of them, according to my landlord she has one of the first feral cat colonies in SLC county, wow, right?

Finally sleep came right around the time Bella turned into a Vampire! Did not see that coming, ha just kidding I have read the book like 3 times, embarrassing, yes.

So my life these days has been better, my Endocrinologist got me on some new meds and I honestly feel so so so much better. No more flu like symptoms all day everyday. I am also on the new diet craze that is sweeping the Vaughn family and I have lost 9 lbs. in a week. Which is awesome since I need to get back to my pre-fat days before September 18 because that is when me and Bryon will be getting married. Yep gonna get settled down and become a Glathar, a Vaughn Glathar that is. I am really excited. I always knew I did not want a big wedding, I didn't even want to wear a dress. That is until the Internets changed my mind and now all I do at night is look at flowers and invites and centerpieces and mood boards. Have you ever heard of a mood board? They are the greatest! Still the wedding will be small small tiny but with prettier colors.

I am gonna be taking better care of my blog because well it was kinda like a therapist for me and since I don't have health insurance and get a bit crazy I need the therapy again, also I still get those awesome bills and phone calls every single day. I feel so bad for not paying off all my medical debt because hello these people saved my life, but really all I can send you this month Mountain West Anesthesiology is $26.00 is that ok? and they usually say no, not cool.

So any help would be great! I want to thank an old friend Marci for writing, that's one of the reasons I decided to get back into this, because people are still stumbling onto my blog and that is cool. Thanks Marci!

Peace and here is my favorite mood board of the moment from A Creative Mint

Awesome

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cushings_syndrome

meow

I hate cats. I am afraid of cats. The lady that me and Bry live below has a feral cat community living right outside our door. She has also been doing some construction and we lost a wall separating our place from hers, our cat free home, hers is chuck full. Well one of them wandered downstairs tonight to where we have a temporary door and began meowing and purring to it's heart content. Now I can't sleep because of the damn noise and because I am afraid it will learn how to open my door and come in and attack me. It could happen!

I have an appointment with a new dr. At 9 am then I am gonna work for a few hours. I hate cats! I hope my appointment goes well and my hair will stop falling out, my cushing's syndrome will go away and I will not have arthritis! A girl can dream right?

P.s. I typed this on my phone so if it looks bad sorry. I am now going to google how to silence cats!(forever)

Hello Stephanie and other readers,

It has been forever since I wrote/blogged. Still trying to get back to normal. A few setbacks to note, I am loosing my hair, I see a specialist called a endocrinologist in March but I am afraid all my hair will be gone by then. I also have a Vitamin D deficiency as well as a Cortisol deficiency my PCP says may be causing the hair loss. I am also scheduled to see a rheumatologist since my hands and joints are constantly hurting me and I am sick of the pain killers that just make me itch! I have a feeling lots of tests are on the way.

I started back to work last week, just a few hours to get back into the swing of things. I really like the people I work with so it was nice to see them again. It will also be nice to have a few extra dollars. I still receive at least 20 letters a week from various health care providers wanting payment, I feel like such a bum not being able to pay it back yet, I hoping for more financial aid from IHC and maybe something from the state but I'm not getting my hopes up. Donations

I'm excited for the weekend hopefully lots of fun and sleep will be had. Thanks for stopping by!

P.S. I am including a picture of a painting Bryon gave me for Christmas, it is so beautiful. It is called Bowl of Oranges. Which by the way is our song by Bright Eyes...check it out.